2024-W12 EOW Report
Highlights This Week
- Very little fiction done this week. This week drained me. I am working hard to replace the income I lost and this dancing on the knifeedge is draining. I’m not reading a ton either. I’m powering through Zeihan. I’m letting Crichton feed his workmanlike prose straight into my veins. The story is straightforward action and there’s no thinking involved. I’m also watching more TV and film again. I think that is a great indicator that I’m self-medicating when I’m really stressed out. I got through Money Heist (2017-2021) Part 2, American Fiction (2023), The Holdovers (2023), and Poor Things (2023) all in the past week since I lost that contract.
- I couldn’t stop yawning and desperately wanted to fall asleep Friday evening while at a RPG session even though it was super fun. I should’ve checked out, and I had a perfect excuse to not go since one of our RCR group couldn’t make it, but I chose to attend anyway because I would’ve just crashed at home and there was a potential I would fall into a mire of exhaustion and possibly grief over the income situation. Or I just felt obligated to. I don’t know. Maybe it was a denial of my situation or a “fuck you” or I felt like I had accomplished enough this week prospecting that I “deserved” it and I wasn’t going to not seize my prize.
- Last 1on1 call with MRK for the short story cohort. On today’s post-MMW meeting, the SSC talked about logistics for how we’d operate post-MRK.
Project Status Dashboard
The following are ongoing fiction writing projects broken down to what stage they’re in. Legend in footnote1.
# | prj | st | dr | ed | rv | fn |
---|---|---|---|---|---|---|
1 | AURA | 1/6 | 1/6 | X | X | X |
2 | BECKY | 1/7 | X | X | X | X |
3 | FIRED | 1/14 | X | X | X | X |
4 | SATSU | 1/21 | X | X | X | X |
5 | ROBOT | 1/28 | 1/29 | X | X | X |
6 | MINOS | 2/11 | 2/27 | X | X | X |
7 | YOKO | 2/18 | X | X | X | X |
8 | STAR | 3/3 | X | X | X | X |
9 | BELLA | 3/10 | X | X | X | X |
10 | SAVED | 3/12 | X | X | X | X |
This week has been rough. What little I could do was me breaking down more flash fiction structures for swiping as thumbnail sketch structures. I go into the office and a part of me wants to sit down next to the coffee machine and write like I finally managed to get into a habit of two weeks ago. But then my brain screams at me to fix this big gaping income hole instead and I head back to my office and start sending out warm emails to previous colleagues, clients, partners. Setting up meetings. Setting up calls. Chasing down leads and potential projects. I don’t hate that I’m back here again. See the Four Thousand Weeks section for more thoughts.
EOW Time Tracking
The following is based on logged productive hours using Timeular. Parameters and definitions in footnote2.
TYPE | % | BAR |
---|---|---|
F0: Research | 00% | |
F1: Prewrite | 4% | |
F2: Drafting | 6% | |
F3: Editing | 00% | |
X: Biz/Mrk/Edu | 13% | |
X: Critique | 2% | |
X: Journaling | 3% | |
C0: Mtgs/Emls | 0% | |
C1: PrepWork | 2% | |
C2: ActualWork | 15% | |
P: Admin | 5% | |
P: Networking | 50% | |
P: Newsletter | 0% |
In Summary:
- F = 10% (super low due to minor panic and hustling for clients)
- X = 18% (b/c this is ’easier’ than actual craft work)
- C = 17% (this could’ve been so much more, but networking/prospecting is draining)
- P = 55% (P stands for prospecting and that’s all I’ve been doing this week)
Four Thousand Weeks
Wks Lft | HP |
---|---|
1752/4000 | 43.800% |
I actually haven’t felt this “alive” in a while, wherein I’m fighting that gnawing uncertainty and chaos from the pit of my stomach. The chase, the hunt. The exhaustion that comes from good effort when you fire off so many shots not knowing if you hit until later. This is opposed to the exhaustion of staying on top of things, maintenance, and almost living in a zombie-state, clocking in, clocking out. There is something to the hunger and “not-knowing”… but it’s so incredibly draining. You just don’t have bandwidth at the end of the day.
There is something to be said about the act of reconnecting with people I haven’t talked to in a long time as well, finding out what people are up to. Meeting new people, figuring them out, sussing out what they want, their quirks, their interests. How they react to things I say. Looking for possibilities and potential and talking about the scope of things. I think that word is key: “possibility”. When things are stable, you’re talking about plans, execution, and the work. When things are unstable, you’re talking about potential, you’re not sure if you’re actually going to move forward with it, there are a lot of maybes and “that could work” and loving ideas.
Is that why I fell in love with the hunt as a freelancer? Is that why I developed such bad work habits? That the chase of possibilities became an addiction?
Book Reading
- Burned through 44% of The End of the World Is Just Beginning, and was moving at a good clip, but while running errands on Saturday, which is usually when I knock off another good chunk of an audiobook, I simply couldn’t do it. Instead, I listened to The Strokes, Yeah Yeah Yeahs, and Of Mice and Men. And because of Kottke, Chapell Roan. I don’t know if it’s because I’ve been beaten down this week with the hustling, or if I’m sick of audiobooks, or I just couldn’t cram my head with more geopolitics.
- Made a good dent on Timeline by Michael Crichton. Very close to done.
- Didn’t touch Pride and Prejudice again for another week. It just feels too heavy (prose wise) right now.
Archive of all EOW reports here
LEGEND for Project Status Dashboard
- prj = project codename
- st = start date
- dr = 1st draft completed
- ed = edits (before beta/crits) completed
- rv = revisions (post-feedback) completed
- fn = story (or chapter) finished
The most important objective of the EOW Time Tracking is to ensure that productive hours are dedicated to actual fiction writing. This is to prevent excuses, distractions, and procrastination activities like… Using “I’m too busy with client work” as an excuse or doing unnecessary “fiction-related” activities (like consuming more craft education, excessive world-building research, and working on marketing stuff when I’m not even published yet!)
LEGEND for EOW Time Tracking
- F = Actual fiction writing work (drafting, editing).
- X = Activities related to fiction, but not actual writing!
- C = Paid client work.
- P = Business related work.